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Hello Moon [Apr. 16th, 2017|01:06 am]
[Current Location |under the lights]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music |Gus Gus - Sustain]

Hello Moon
my lonely friend
I will walk with you
around your great bend
in the sky tonight

Do you see our friend Jupiter?
his bend through the sky
is almost over for the night

My friend Moon
at times in my life
you have felt like my only friend

We met long ago
do you remember?
I looked into the sky and there you were

I called out to you
and I was only a wee lad
while you, ageless and ancient
curved across the sky

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running [Apr. 4th, 2017|12:59 am]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]
[Current Music |Boris Brejcha - Lost Memory]

Walk through the world with grace and courtesy, but walk through it as though you own it.
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Many are called, few are chosen [Mar. 2nd, 2017|12:07 am]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music | Stan Kolev - Here Comes The Rain Again feat. Tatiana Blades (Winter Harmony Mix)]

"Now we are in the period of life which we call spiritual spring. If a farmer is late in sowing, then there will be no harvest and, therefore, no bread. Likewise, if a person is late in acquiring sobriety, attention to his inner man, his heart, then he will be left without spiritual nourishment, in spiritual hunger. And if there is some kind of passion in his heart and he realizes it, then he will also understand that no one can drive out this passion except He Who created man. But for this to happen, preparation is needed. And this preparation is fasting and prayer.
(Rymarenko, A.The One Thing Needful (pp. 48–49).
The St. John of Kronstadt Press)

This makes me think of many things. The starving man is more appreciative of the bread for one. The penitent man who spent his whole life going to church will oft have less hunger for the Spirit, for God. The sinner is hungry, just look at the life of St Mary of Egypt as an example. A prostitute born in a foreign faith. In the eyes of man, in the eyes of the legalistic, a great sinner. Turned away from entering the church by the spirit of Mary the mother of God, she shed her old life and repented and then was allowed to enter. After this she shed all and went into the wilderness, living off anything she could find to eat in her desert area. Sleeping in open ground and interacting with nobody. She carried only what was on her back into the wilderness.
Years later she was found by a traveling priest and she was according to his account floating above the ground. He agreed to baptize her and give her communion, but she never lived to see that day. A powerful spirit, first misapplied and then redeemed.
Fasting makes one hungry, it makes one weak. Weakness is the beginning of the realization we need help and are not all powerful. Feeling weak is the beginning of our minds grasping the obvious.
We are imperfect, all living things are. I have been painfully aware of my imperfections for my entire life, as I inherited several extremely rare genetic issues. I would call them disorders or syndromes, but as they cause no real harm and perhaps benefit me in other ways I wonder if they really fall in those categories. All of us have some small flaw we were born with. Nobody is all powerful either, even KiM Il Sung or any other dictator, monarch or even a president. Mr. Trump, you may have millions of dollars but you could never buy me if I didn't agree with my job. Ms. Clinton I wouldn't do anything other than give you the time of day. Mr. Putin I would shake your hand for free.
Politics aside and other analogies aside, basically speaking needing God leaves you hungry. Military campaigns in the western Roman empire mean you desire to know what God gave you the title of Emperor to start with. When you discover the true God you desire to worship and serve that god, and protect the followers of it. In case you didn't notice I was just speaking of Constantine. He may have come to the vineyard late, but the wages of all are the same.
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Do I? [Feb. 22nd, 2017|01:02 am]
[Current Mood |lonelylonely]
[Current Music | Stan Kolev - A New Dawn (Instrumental)]

Do I or do I not? Am I or am I not? To quote Velikovsky I am coming close to 'Doubting the instrument itself'. What am I? What is human life? Service of God of course, but what else is there? This planet, this world exists, and I exist in it of course.
Am I meaningful or am I meaningless? What is the meaning of life? 42 is what some say and though I agree with that conclusion I find myself wanting more. If only I would find the strength to reach out to my fellow man.
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nothing? [Feb. 21st, 2017|11:14 pm]
[Current Location |Somewhere where humans live but no others say hello]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music | Stan Kolev, Quartet Zahir - Constant Craving (Original Mix)]

I sit in nothing, a chair perhaps made of wood and metal. Such a life. A life of nothing.
I ponder what it all means, or if it means anything more meaningful than a simple '42'. Does it? Do I invent all the meaning to it? Should I be inventing some meaning?
I went through the desert on a horse with no name. It felt good to be out of the rain. Or did it? I would never traverse a desert without giving a name to my horse.
What purpose do I have? Is there a purpose to life? A meaning?
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Caveman (work in progress) [Feb. 15th, 2017|12:00 am]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music | Kastis Torrau & Arnas D - Ride (Original Mix)]

With broad strides he marched across the ground, approaching the people assembled and scattered around. His blazing caveman eyes shone with a brilliant primitive ferocity; fingering his bright metallic rock. Passing them all he strode through the open door.
He reached in his pocket and pulled out his pack of cigarettes, and lit one with his lighter from his other pocket.
He stared into the sky, trying to ascertain the signs and seasons, but disappointed gave up as the streetlights were to bright to see the signs from the gods.
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Atlas has not shrugged [Feb. 10th, 2017|10:00 pm]
[Current Location |under the lights]
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music | Sasha, Krister Linder - Cut Me Down (Kastis Torrau & Donatello feat. Arnas D. Remix)]

Ayn Rosenbaum. Now that is a cousin to be proud to be related to.
I would have loved to meet her.
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Flight [Feb. 10th, 2017|09:25 pm]
[Current Location |skyward]

'Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk with your eyes turned heavenward, for there you have been, and there you will forever long to return.' Leonardo Da Vinci

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stars and other oddities [Jan. 27th, 2017|01:01 am]
[Current Location |under the lights]
[Current Mood |aspiring]
[Current Music | Parachute Youth - Can't Get Better Than This (Donatello 2013 Rework)]

A star hangs
in a hazy sky
Streetlights blare
into my eyes

A friend, a companion
just out of reach
Regardless of how much I know about them
regardless of how much I reach out to them
we may never touch
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A Week Ago [Nov. 16th, 2016|07:48 pm]
[Current Location |The United States]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |Moderat - Damage Done (Silinder remix)]

On the evening after the election day a week ago I woke up, and one of the first things I asked my mum was "Who won the election for president?"
I had no idea who had won, it was difficult to tell who would when I left my grandma's house the previous night. All I could tell was the feel of the air, the feeling of the world's mood seemed relieved that it was over. I hoped it was over.
Even now the rational and reasonable are getting fed up with those who refuse it being all said and done. Even the winner's opponent are saying "It's over, he won fair and square." How can people protest about democracy? It is a good thing we don't live in a place like North Korea like they want to where all is decided for us without our input.
How can people be so bitter and irrational? Love him or hate him for irrational reasons Trump will be our president for the next four years. Breathe a sigh of relief that the elections are over and accept it.
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life [Nov. 8th, 2016|07:45 pm]
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[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music |Tvardovsky - Dancing Shadows (Hernan Cattaneo & SoundExile Remix)]

We all make preparations for our loved ones for them to be comfortable after we leave when we know we are going to die.
Why don't we make them when we are going to live?

While we are alive is when we can enjoy those things with them.
Why wait?
Live now and leave tomorrow for tomorrow's sake.
We always want to say some tearful goodbye to our loved ones, to let them know that we care.
Why not let them know now?
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meaning [Nov. 7th, 2016|08:05 pm]
[Current Location |Under the streetlights]
[Current Mood |soresore]
[Current Music |Blu Mar Ten - Hunter (feat. Seba) [Nelver Remix]]

No stars seen in the sky
no warmth in the air
nothing to really care
About the things in the night
passing like the breeze
freezing to the bone
Alone in the night
people passing silent
as the thoughts in my mind
Flow silently by
nothing to think on
nothing to look forward to
At home silence
woods greeting the night
air wandering through the pine
Trees waving lightly
an opossum wandering nightly
in search of some food scraps
As I search
still and silent myself
in search of some deeper meaning
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